So, it's been a really long time since I posted anything on my journal. A very very long time. It seems funny to see how far my life has come in only a couple of years. Life is funny that way but that's just the way it is. My life has completely changed in just a couple years. When last i posted a journal, I had no direction in life, I hated the school I was at and I was just really upset with the way my life was going and I wanted to get out of my city. I have become a totally different person now. I've transferred up to Chico state in northern California, out of the sunny so-cal life and into some rugged territory, I'm studying pre-law and I have a ton of friends up here. The weather varies which I love from rain to EXTREME heat during the summer. I'm very happy with my situation and the path that my life is now going down on it's course. It feels good to be working towards a goal, I work VERY hard, sometimes it's a pain in the neck because my house can be hectic and crazy but we work it out and I get all my work done in time and to the best of my ability. We party on the weekend pretty hard up here, I've toned it down a lot from my last year here though. I have to because my workload has increased a ton. I am working towards heading into law school in the next couple years and I am trying to work up an impressive resume through different law organizations and clubs within the school as well as my internships. A few years ago I was at my community college, thinking that I wanted to do business, then acting, then english, then history. God life is funny in how things can change so quickly. It's been a bumpy road all these years but I'm really fully enjoying myself now, I breath easier, and I know my father is looking down on me with pride in all the hard work that he put into me, and that is incredibly gratifying. Last semester was hell, but the last 4 weeks of this new semester have absolutely just washed away all the incredible pain that I had and anger. It's still hard to deal with but I feel like I have a different view on things, and while the pain from this sense of loss will never fully go away, I'm no longer angry and I don't feel secluded from the world like I did after the immediate loss. I have to live my life, for myself and my father, and my family and everyone whom I care about. I feel destined to be successful and to be happy with my life. I feel positive that I will enjoy my life and that things from here on out will be better. I'm going white water rafting in either march or april. I can't wait, its something that I've wanted to do for a few years now. I'm 22 now, and reading these old journals, just brings to home, how events in life can really mature a person in a short amount of time. I hope everyone is doing well and hope to hear from you guys.