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RevolverRevolver in hand.
the bullet slices through my hair follicles
it has pierced my skull
the brainwaves attack
the metal acts as a magnet
it attracts electricity hotwiring my center
the waves backfire
my central circuit board explodes
the nuclei of my brain push forth with a tremendous force
a supernova has erupted in my head
shutting me down piece by piece
my body parts are failing me.
it pushes on, leaving me a ravaged disaster
like a tornado chasing me down showing no mercy
I collapse in pieces
It is time to see life,
it is my time to reminisce.

Sick?I'm so sick of myself I can't breath
weaving in and out, I always come back
I'm a runaway train on an invisible track.
I feel I do right,
but my affect on people is not.
it must be,
That I am! a problem.
That I am! an issue.
but I do not see it. . .

My imploding feelings cannot be suppressed.
I AM FALSE! I scream.
WHO NEEDS THE TWISTED DARKNESS OF A BLACK SOUL?
TAINT ME! FUCK ME!

from out of my slits
slowly the blood trickles out.
as my minutes dwindle, I slowly cease to be.
my purpose has long ago faded and vanished.
my continuous let down's ravage self perseverance .
confused on where to go my will to live erodes..
my tea

Torn everyday.Everyday, I wake up to see your face.
Everyday, I wonder when I'll see you.
Everyday, I think of what I'll do to win you over.
Everyday, I dress up, just for you.

Everyday, I ache if I don't see you.
Everyday, I wonder if you really do like me.
Everyday, I wonder how far could this go?
But then, everyday I never know.

Everyday, I ask myself why.
Why, are you so special to me?
And everyday I ponder,
Never to find the answer.

Everyday, your on my mind.
Everyday, I think of you.
Everyday, I that question goes through my head still unanswered.
Everyday, do you want me, too?

Everyday, I say to myself,
"This is petty child's play

As I grow insaneShe was so good to me
She taught me how to love
This feeling, emotion
My thought of losing you
I think of daily
I feel on the brink of insanity
Self placed shrieks splinter my ear
My eyes are dilated
What is the pivotal moment?
My blood chills not boils
The horizon is red and wet
I twitch in control
Or am I?
I lose myself a minute
Torn, life, future, insanity, beloved,
The creature tears my brain
I am unscathed
But actions reveal beneath
The edge is close
What lies beyond?
Words scribble on
As I write I release but it comes back
It hits my brain with the force of a truck
Pills scatter unused
Cars drive untouched
Trees

It was a dreamWe used to float high together
The best of times
The love of my life
It felt like a dream
I felt prized
We were perfect
Times have changed
The same old days
Have lost their value
And become insignificant
One life lived
And one is unknown
As smoke clears
More billows in
Fear is my feeling
Love my emotion
Life my divergent
Death my unknown
Our future is veiled
But the path I am leading
Seems to have run out of track
My world is caving in on me
But the cause is me
The only thought of saving us
Is to find another world
I am the cause of our demise
Because of anothers event
That I am unable to overcome
I blame myself fo

Goodnight, My Princess"Bang!" the shot rings through my ears like the church bells of Norte Dame. "What was that?" I exclaimed as a poked my head out of an open window. I looked only to find nothing. I figured it was probably just another band of kids messing with fire crackers. That's what they do on the week of the 4th of July. Oh well I thought, and I continued drawing. I was drawing a picture from a dream that I'd had, a dream of love, denial, and betrayal. Me being only 15 I had not the slightest idea what any of this dream truly meant, but it had struck a sensitive bone and made me ponder of its events. It consisted of me and a boy.

This was no ordinary boy

The Serenity Of LifeT\'was spring in June
And I was a boy of thirteen years
I was riding the highway on my red bicycle
And the wind blowing through my hair
As I peaked through the barbed wire fences
I could see yellow daisies stretching on to eternity
The sky had a pale blue look to it
And there were spots of cloud here and there
Before me lay the beachfront
And the ocean lapped happily at the waters edge
There was a great breeze in the air
And the smell of the ocean and daisies seemed to fill my lungs
There was a peaceful feeling everywhere
And the birds were chirping happily around me
I knew the area well
For this was my place of serenity
And

Love and DespairAm I a bad boyfriend?
do I pester you too much?
when I call does your skind boil?
would you like to throw me away?
are you treated like gutter trash?
did you know that I am on the edge ready to fall?
to fall into the unknown, desolate nothingness..
I feel broken,
do I hurt you?
mentally do I crush you?
shall I leave you alone?
to move on,
while I dwell forever..
lost in the past?
are we a beautiful failure,
totalled and un-mendable?
shall I jump from eternity into despair?
or drown in love and dwellings of loss?
would you like to watch me soar in anguish?
I'm on my knees...

TAKE ME!

West Forest"Jacob Ryan Bradley, Get out of bed this instant!" my mom shouted in my ear, "You'll be late for school". Yeah, right, like I'd want to go to school. I'm a rather good student if it comes to reading, writing, and arithmetic, but on the social scheme of things, well, let's just say I'm not up to par. Who am I kidding? It's a constant night mare! "Hey new kid!" they'd yell as garbage was dumped on my head. Well, I'm just one of five kids; at least that's what my mom would say if I said anything about school problems. "Why can't you live your own life I can't do everything for you!" Well, that's my predicament. I'm a new kid at a school wher

DrownDrown the thoughts
Drown the screaming
Stifle the pain that's
in my head
Drown the hope
And drown the dreaming
Just let it all be dead

Let it all fall down
To sweep the waters
of my guilt
Let the memories drown
Have it wash away
with pain I've built
Cause I hate who you all see
The girl I know as me
So let me drown

I've watched my life
continue onward
With no pause and
no rewind
All that I can do
is move forward
But I wish that I was
far behind

Let it all fall down
To sweep the waters
of my guilt
Let the memories drown
Have it wash away
with pain I've built
Cause I hate who you all see
The girl I know as me
S

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Wasted

by *musicfan, Aug 4, 2004, 1:31:13 PM
Literature / Poetry / Horror / Free Verse

I am a smashed masterpiece
broken shards of a worthless entity
my skin sears as tears sting my charred face
My tortured soul perseveres existence
and my mind is broken
regurgitation embraces my youth
I cough out my aunguish
but I am already feral
hollow,
opaque to the bone
my tounge spits blood and my tears bleed
I am a numb existence
my cries and tears indent upon no one
and my anguish and sorrow continue unnoticed
I bury my face in my arms and fall to my knees
a bird chirps,
I choke out a smile
but it is wicked
through my gritted teeth of rot
I am a monstrosity
wreathed in internal flame
to convulse among my implosions
and remain wasted
I am a work of art
a youth of the past
to fall through the cracks of shadow
Lost and forgotten

Wastedby *musicfan

Literature / Poetry / Horror / Free Verse

Written after I read a poem last night that blew me away...

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~mr-jepeto Jun 28, 2008

Powerful. i was actually browsing through "wasted' category ,needed something to relate to how waste d on self-disgust, self-disgrace and anger i feel at the moment. didnt relate to ur poem..no no but its well fascinating!! you write beaaaautifully! Xo XD